Hello.
The last time i posted anything here was in 2020. Turns out a fair bit happened that year and in the couple that followed.
Memorable events included – my first and last kidney stone struck me down in June 2020, my last (and i mean it) therapist dumped me, i ended my lifelong association with my remaining sibling and her spouse which i am sure was my fault but i don’t know how, i contracted corona and didn’t die, Social Security emptied my disability account of all my funds when i changed from a personal rep. (sister) to self representation and will not give it back, i learned how to make chicken jerky for my dog – Blue, i started wearing a mask on my face when advised to do so and i continue to this day and will for now because 500 people a day still die in this country from corona.
Some of the highlights. I think i will write more about a few of them in the comings days. I have always used this blog as more of a record of my days than anything else and my flagging memory needs help with the odd detail.
Beside the frustration that Social Security has heaped into my life, i pulled the trigger and finally hired a company to remodel my kitchen only to discover that they where mostly dicks who believed i had the right to pay for their services but no business interfering and telling them what i wanted. Their assurance that my ” small kitchen would only take 3 to 4 weeks” in fact took from August to January to finish and for me to get them the fuck out of my life. Once that last draw clears i will be delighted to write my review on any site i can access.
One surprise for me was realizing that my efforts to avoid humans has made my mental health soooo much better. Perhaps removing all external expectations of me was the key. If i don’t want to talk etc. – i don’t. No guilt, no excuses from me – just no. The other positive contributor to better brains has been my fine tuning my cannabis use and finally sleeping well night after night. Yum.
Doc
thebigfarm 