Saw the ortho. guy yesterday, got the sutures out, go back in three weeks. Finally read the OR report: the median nerve was adherent to the undersurface of the radial border of the transverse carpal ligament (the ligament that is transected to open the carpal tunnel during carpal tunnel release) and showed generalized perineural fibrosis with a minimal area of narrowing. So, hopefully now the damned thing will be happy and start to work again. Although, sometimes i wonder why i’m bothering.
I’ve already fucked up my new meds. Was supposed to get a starter pack of Viibryd from Dr. S’nG but i sprinted out of there too quickly and frankly it was the last thing on my mind. Was supposed to start at 10mg/day for 7 days then increase to 20 mg/day for 7 days ’til we meet again in 6 weeks. When i filled the Rx. it’s for 20mg so i cut one in half, took it around 4pm (but without food, it’s supposed to be) and took another half after dinner when i took the risperidone (taken twice a day.) Don’t expect any problems, just goes to show me i’m not really paying attention.
My insurance co. approved the Viibryd: retail price $167.00 for 30 tabs., i pay $50.oo co-pay, but what really blew my ass off was the risperidone: $307.00 for 60 tabs. retail, thank fuck only a $13.47 copay.
I’ve noticed a shift in my food cravings. Less soft-boiled eggs and robins eggs, more Chunky Monkey ice cream and peanuts in the shell, unsalted. As a very fond follower of Dotty Headbanger, i considered trying to find a sausage to call my own, but as a confirmed non-mammalivore (yes, it’s a real word even if i did make it up – look it up), i believe this search will end in heartbreak. I continue to eat poultry and fish, yes and eggs and milk, but i recently had a very in-depth discussion with my brother about his job and i should seriously find a way to stop eating birds. He works in a chicken packing plant. They kill about 300 birds a minute all day, 6 days a week. The “process” is mechanized and highly structured for efficiency but in the end, consists of poor, frightened animals hung up by the feet, sprayed with water, stunned electrically, and decapitated etc. while moving along a conveyor belt. He said the only part of the chickens they don’t use is the screams (OK, he said clucks). Maybe they could find a way to harness the energy in their “vocalizations” like Monsters, Inc. Probably the same for turkeys, only louder.
I’ve started rolling my own cigarettes. I resumed smoking in November 2011 after a 22 year break and now Marlboro 100s are @ $70.00 a carton (10 packs of 20). I can roll a carton of my own for around $15.00. I bought this clever little rolling device (cheap) and it’s something to do when i’m bored.
I’ve got 7 or 8 episodes of Merlin and Being Human DVR’d that i have to find a way of just watching. I love both shows but for some reason cannot make myself watch right now. Weird.
Also asked the neighbor and his son to hook up an X-box 360 that i bought 6 years ago (still in the box), and now can’t be arsed to play because i can’t figure out how to get Remy to jump on the water pump handle to get a prize. Maybe when my head is quieter.
I’m going for a smoke. Doc.