I’ve been arguing with my shrink again about whether there is any “valid scientific evidence” to support my contention that pot can be a helpful drug for mental health problems. He says no. I tell him that there is plenty of anecdotal evidence that it is but most importantly, it is helpful to me. He retreats a bit behind his statement that “that is not my area of expertise.” OK. I understand but don’t condemn it because you haven’t kept up with current research. In the end we agree to disagree and as usual I walk out with the ICD code of F12.20 or cannabis dependence, uncomplicated in the record.
My therapist seems to be embracing pot as a component of getting through my day and recently suggested I use it more on a schedule “like pain meds”, so my blood levels won’t fluctuate as much. Will think about this a bit.
I also told my psychiatrist not to ask me ever again if i’m planning to go home and kill myself. I told him that this question at every visit often sends me home to self harm and at times feels like a suggestion from him. He looked confused, then hurt. “What am I supposed to say to see if you’re safe?” I told him I didn’t know just not those words. I asked him if anyone else had told him it was a triggering question and he said no. I told him that if I was suicidal and I wanted him to know, I would tell him.
Not much else to say. Doc