Today i shall whine.
2017 has been filled, so far, with too many doctor appts. and the onset of too many issues. Whine, whine.
I am 60 years old now and not oblivious to the fact that i’m going to die of something. The questions seems to be what and when and do i care. Short of suicide, my manner of death could get wildly out of my control. At any time.
This week, my tormentors have been primarily neurological in nature.
I gradually noticed this past half year that my sleep was ragged and painful due to pain in my left leg. I made a presumptive diagnosis of sciatica, saw my ortho. guy, got the lumbar spine MRI, and can now see a left-sided L5S1 disc herniation. Nailed it! Thankfully, i have no back pain only sciatica. But.. how and when?
Dr Backbone has sent me off for “evaluation and treatment” [epidural steroid/analgesic injection] at a nearby spine and pain center. I called them Friday and have an appt. tomorrow – Monday. Nice. There is also a plan for a fluoroscopic-guided steroid/contrast injection of my left hip because i suspect i also have arthritis. “Both diagnostic and therapeutic.” Long needles in my future. I may take the pain center up on their offer for IV sedation – why suffer?
Friday, i woke with a moderate headache. Saturday, it took me several tries to get out of bed due to severe dizziness and nausea. Yea. I rode the couch and floor all day, much to the disappointment of my hyperactive dog, and concluded i have vertigo. Etiology unclear, likely benign paroxysmal positional vertigo. A quick internal survey ruled out TIA/stroke so i tried to read and apply one of the home remedies for re-positioning tiny stones i may have knocked out of position on Thursday night at the Ricky Scaggs concert. Get down tonight.
I found i couldn’t remember one position change to the next and lifting my head to read the next instruction set off the spins and retching , so i gave up and made an appt. to see my primary care provider on Tuesday. Another fucking appt. I may seem ungrateful for the access and speed with which i have been offered help, but i’m not. I’m just whining.
I will admit that i also considered rabies as the cause of my dizziness and headache. Because… about a week ago Blue brought me a newly dead raccoon pup during one of our walks. About 6-7 weeks old, no external signs of trauma and well nourished Cute as hell actually. I, being curious and wanting to see if it was still warm ie: newly dead because Blue HAD killed it, did a quick exam including an oral exam. But it was already cooling and she hadn’t been gone that long. She’s current on her rabies vaccination, mine is overdue. But, reason returned and i decided i would probably be more cognitively impaired if i had rabies so i stopped thinking about striped beasts. [Raccoons and zebras.]
Today, Sunday, i feel a little better, less dizzy and less nauseous. I am better at holding my head and neck still, but the vertigo is still with me. I am going to see if driving the truck is an option as Blue NEEDS a walk and i need to find out if i can get myself to my Monday and Tuesday appts. without calling on my busy sister to take me. But, i will if i have to. Whine.